I've had a LOT on my mind lately, I guess too much for the amount of quiet time to compose all of those thoughts into anything that makes much sense...
This morning I'm concerned about two little girls, 8 and 11 years old who have gone missing near a lake in a small town not very far from us. I pray that they will both be found unharmed, but I'm worried... and I'm trying not to be judgemental...
I've always been VERY protective of my kids, step kids, grand kids, any kids in my care, to the point of irritating the hell out of them, but I wouldn't change it because I always knew where they were and that they were safe. I remember lining them up before we would go to the public pool, (where yeah, I know there are lifeguards, but they are "kids" too...), and explaining all of my rules, making sure that they understood EXACTLY what I expected from them, (for example if you're going to be out of sight to use the restroom or something, tell me), they all knew that if any of my rules were broken we would leave immediately whether we'd been there for 2 minutes or 2 hours.
My youngest is nearly 16 and when she rides her bike over to her Grandma's house, (about 5 blocks away), I insist that she texts me when she arrives, and when she ready to head home. I know that I am overprotective but nothing is more important to me that trying to do my best to keep her safe...
It's been very difficult for me as the kids grow up and I have to let them make their own choices, good and bad. I'm proud that they usually do pretty well, but still worry a lot when they make poor decisions, or when they are struggling through rough times... I understand mentally that worry does nothing to help them, and that it can in fact harm me health wise, so I try to do more praying than worrying, but my anxiety issues sometimes win the battle. I know that their guardian angels are doing their jobs, guiding and guarding my kids through all of their days and nights, but I really miss KNOWING for certain that they are safe and sound...
Please say a prayer for these missing girls and all children of the world suffering in any way...THANKS!
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